Growing, Not Dying

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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Mental Cleanse Follow-Up

Last month I told you Jim and I are doing a Mental Cleanse. It's almost over. If I were grading us I would probably give us a B- to a C for our participation. It blows my mind it's been almost a whole month already. I guess it must be helping cause I feel pretty good. In fact, yesterday was the first day in a very long time I felt fully awake and present. For me the combination of Wizard camp, quitting my meds, and doing a mental cleanse has been exactly what I needed.

In a way it's sad. I don't remember any of my middle two childrens' infancy. I see pictures and I know they are mine, but I don't really remember it. I don't remember weddings, birthdays, or other events I attended. Pictures are my only link. Sometimes they will trigger a vague memory. The good news is that now I am here for all the new things going on. I'll be able to enjoy their childhoods. *sigh* Happiness is being present.


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