Enlightenment & Lull

It was said "The essence of enlightenment is being able to observe yourself." Well, I am observing myself now. I have found after a strong personal developement experience I enter a self-destructive depression. It is so engrained, I don't even notice the thoughts that go with it. I simply find myself doing certain things. Sleeping more. Eating more. Acting badly in relationships I consider important. All sorts of nonsupportive actions.

Now it's just a matter of having the self-discipline to keep moving forward even if "I'm not in the mood."